Don’t feel bad…

I know everything you said about me is true….

At least now I know that even the people that tell me they love me actually hate me and think I’m worthles…… 

I think I might actually seriously like him…

Feeeeeeeeeeelings go awaaay you’re going to ruin everything T_____________T

Such a sad day

In drama we did this thing that I’m not allowed to talk about and give details about and I’m honestly afraid of my drama teacher so I won’t mention any details… but holy shit it was the most moving thing ever. Like it made me realize how close I was to everyone in that class and how much I’d miss them. And the seniors started crying and when I see people cry I cry. So i was sitting there crying about other people then I actually got sad and someone said something really moving to me and I was just like asdfghjkl tears. And then I couldn’t stpo and it was time to say goodbye and I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to let go of the seniors I hugged them for so long. It reminded me just how much I hate the end of the year. I hate goodbyes. Because a)  I will probably never see most of the seniors again and b) even the people I will see next year in my grade and stuff, we’ll never have the same class, it’ll never be the same exacty group of people, it’ll be different and I really love most of my classes this year (not just drama) and it’s just so heartbreaking to leave them…

Okay I’m done being sad now…

You don’t get your way and you resort to name calling…

and then you wonder why I will not take you back

“All my life I’ve been good but now I’m thinking what the hell. All I want is too mess around and I don’t even care about if you love me, if you hate me, you can’t save me baby. All my life I’ve been good but now, what the hell”

These lyrics so describe my outlook on life right now. Like honestly that’s whats going through my mind all the time “Waht the hell.” I just want to do wahtever the fuck I want whenever the fuck I want to do it. And I don’t fucking care who calls me out on it because after the year I’ve had I’m sick of listening to other people. I’ll be a whore if I want. I’ll do drugs if I want. I’ll give up in school if I want, because seriously, it’s my fucking life and I’m sick of the way I’m living it.

i’m sick af

and stressed

and sad

and mad

and confused

and pmsing

kill me now.

I’m so sick of not being able to do anything fun because my stupid mom is too goddamn lazy to drive me.